Trevor

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How to Be Busy, How to Stay Busy

It is now the middle of Week 7 of fall quarter at Evergreen, and I haven’t written anything directly reflective since before I got on a plane towards Olympia. How has this happened? What changed this quarter, compared to the spring?

Well, to begin, I believe a little thing called summer occurred – I didn’t hold myself to any sort of posting (or writing) schedule over those three months, and this blog’s scant activity reflected that. I suspect this related to the reality of who I felt that I’m writing this for: My family, who’s away, but I know would like to know what I’ve been able to find rewarding in both my education and my life, and (hopefully) many friends of mine. When I was living again with my family (knock that group off the list of “not knowing what I’m up to”, in other words), and when many of my pals were at a far remove, I somehow managed to forget them as an audience, perhaps because I was no longer seeing them daily. I’m sorry, folks. I’ve had some experiences recently that have illustrated to me how out of touch I’ve been with many of my close friends: I’m sorry I didn’t know until I was two weeks late, E, and I’m very happy for you J, and B.

But most of all, this quarter’s revealed how easy it is to lose contact with myself – something that I think reflective writing like this really does alleviate, and something I feel I wasn’t practicing enough of.  The largest appeal Evergreen has always had for me is its honesty, in some pockets of it as an institution, that everything that’s active in your life affects and contributes to your learning; something I almost tried to forget this quarter. Y’see, I’ve been busy. Really busy. So busy, I spent several weeks straight waking up, getting in one mindset for class, jumping out of it for the Geoduck Union, jumping out of that for the Writing Center, jumping out of that for a Slightly West (more on what these terms even mean at a later point) meeting, and slinking on home to essentially change bikes and develop a manuscript for an hour or two, and at some point eating and sleeping. The easiest coping mechanism for all this was to pretend, somehow, that these activities could be separate, merely because the people I saw at these different places and contexts didn’t show up elsewhere! I had taken myself out any awareness, or equation; in the process of doing so, I also took out my effectiveness, my energy, and my education. I was defeated, deteriorating, and delirious instead.

It took a few different things to jar me out of this rut, which I won’t go into right now. The importance of the matter is – this past weekend, I feel that I had an opportunity (which I took) to become re-centered, empowered in my learning; this change of feeling is going to require some reevaluation and change on my part for the coming quarter, and year, though. Think of this as my drafting out of possible New Year’s Resolutions, if you feel so obliged.

  1. I will not be in Logopoesis next quarter.
  2. I will be studying a language next quarter – Linguistic study gestures most closely at what I feel my aims in college are at this juncture.
  3. I will reevaluate commitments as they continue to develop – I am not tied down to anything, any longer than it is healthy for myself. An important feature of this is active reflection – I will post here frequently.
  4. My education is, and will continue to be, informed by a sense of the society and communities it is shaping and unveiling for me.
  5. Long lasting relationship- and community-building can surmount individual challenges.
  6. My life can have synergy. I can be renewed in heterogeneous efforts by finding the points of intersection.

But really, why must I talk so? It’s already been done in comics

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One Response

  1. Mom says:

    Hi T, you know we do indeed love reading your blog – whether you’re in Austin or Olympia! The comic does indeed say it all. Love you much, Mom

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